Well... My little Lilith is at the vet now for her surgery. Its only a spay, but still, I'm nervous out of my mind. Its the longest my baby has been away from me in months. And the longest she's been away from her sister since.. well.. she was born. I'll be getting a call form them after she gets out of surgery at 1pm to let me know how she's doing. And if all goes well, I can pick her up between 5 and 7pm. Thats almost 12 hours out of the house.


On another note, May 17th marks the end of my 5th year here on deviantart, and its been a real experience to remember. I've met lots of awesome people, and discovered myself in the years I've been here. It was a crutch through some of the worst times of my life, and I love you guys for it. Thanks for being so cool.

Speaking of the worst of times, May 13th marks the 4th year since my mother passed away from Cancer. This is why smoking is bad for you. She smoked when I was younger, and it killed her. She got cancer in her lungs, and it spread to her brain. It looked like she was doing well, and was finally regaining motor skills after suffering a stroke caused by all the chemo and medication, and then she developed a tumor in a place that was impossible to treat without killing her, so she died at the age of 58. It was agony for me to watch such a strong and vibrant woman waste away like she did. I still beat myself up for distancing myself from her like I did at the end, when she probably needed me most. Its not something I can forgive myself for doing. Please think twice before lighting up that next cigarette.

RIP Gerri Barist --- 26 Jun 1946 to 13 May 2004

You are missed and loved every day, and forever.


I'm going to have to end this journal now because the screen is becoming blurry, and its making it hard to me to type. Thank you all for listening and being here for me all these years.



UPDATE:
My kitty is home, and she's doing just fine. Thanks for all the words of support and comfort. She's still whacked out from the sedatives (Wobbling like a drunk man, falling asleep in her food bowl. ) but she's going to make a full recovery!

Here is a picture of her with her stitches, showing off her sexily shaved belly.



UPDATE2:I just got a call 2 hours ago from my best friend Elly! She's gone into labor, and should be giving birth to no doubt a beautiful baby boy any time now! Everybody mentally send her good vibes. This pregnancy has been rough on her.

I should have baby pictures soon! Her husband has a whole bunch on his cell phone and will be emailing some my way as soon as they figure out how to send from the phone to the emails! It is a 7+ lb baby boy, with dark blue eyes, and brown hair. The delivery went relatively smoothly, apart from some tearing, which can be normal. She thanks you all for the well wishes, and good karma.

So, I was going through all my old journal entries, all the way back to when I joined in May 2003. and it reminded me of how much I love you guys. Ya'll have been amazing to me since the very beginning, and I you all for it. Thank you for putting up with my whiny teenage years, and my total emotional roller coaster.

and I will leave you on this note...


I'm so emo.

I know there are not many of my watchers that actually have an interest in my journal, seeing as I'm not that interesting, but I'd like to share this with you. There is a poll going around proposing a new section in photography. `snowmask has made a great journal for you all, explaining this type of photography, a link to the poll, and sharing with you, a few of the deviants that use these processes. She's even linked some beautiful works from these artists. The journal is located here [link] . I strongly urge that you go look and vote on this poll.

A friend of mine is running a little short on cash these days, and is looking to pick up a few commissions to help pay her bills, so if you guys want one, or know anyone that does, please check out her journal here! [link]



So here is the real big reason I have decided to edit my journal. Because as much as I Mooky up there, there is a bigger problem on our hands. Congress is trying to pass a bill that would allow anyone to make money off your art if it is deemed orphaned (if they can't contact you for some reason). Usually the copyright is good enough by you just creating it, but now the only form of copyright that will protect you, is the one that you pay $5 for each piece of work you have copyrighted. This is ridiculous!

Please sign the petition to stop this bill! [link]

Also, please write your senators and state representatives telling them how outrageous this is!

You can see the original news link by clicking here [link] , and then clicking the title on the news page! Please read all the way to the end. There is a website with a list of resources to help you contact the government about this!

April will be uneventful.